Why must this start?

27th June 2010
0800hrs

I really hate you. 2 years ago, you caused me so much misery, so much heartache, yet 2 years down the road, I still feel the same. I thought getting someone else will allow me to forget you, but the pain would not subside. I really hate myself for still missing you, for comparing every other girl with you. You have set the benchmark, an unachievable standard.

I finally understood how you felt last time. When you said you just wanted to be left alone, when you just wanted your own free time after work, when you just didn’t want to meet. Perhaps it’s a little too late, When you wanted to get back together in February, I would have agreed, if not for the fact that I was disappointed that you actually had your share of fun with your those flings, and treated me like a backup.


2nd July 2010
2030hrs

Still feel so close to you, as if you never left me. I could imagine myself talking to you, like what we used to do. So many things I wish to tell only you. If only I could just drive over to your place now, but I know I cannot do it. Time waits for no man.