Day 2

When I woke up, I so wanted to call you to wish you good morning, like what I used to every morning. I know u will not want me to do that, I had to learn to respect your choice. Maybe for the 5 years, I never listened to you enough, now I will listen to you. It was so hard to fight the urge. I so wanted to pei you to collect your stuff, explore your new gadget. I feel so so empty. Went to watch Hancock with zy and gang, nearly cried at the cinema. Although I haven’t watched a movie with them for ages, its just weird, I keep asking why am I not watching with you? Its 4am now, I still cant sleep, that’s why decide to wake up to write some stuff. Just now, I so so wanted to call you again. I had to disconnect the cable so that I will fight the urge. I know you were so selfish and mean to me, but to me, every morning I wake up, I will forget how mean you were and I will love you more and more each day no matter how you treat me. You should know thats how I work. It has always been this way, and I really do not mind it being this way forever. I really love my goal of just seeing you being happy everyday.