Slept at 5, woke up at 10, ate my usual breakfast, then, met Clement for gym at 1130. Didn’t do anything much accept curl abit, he couldn’t do much as well coz of his injuries. More of a talk cock catch up session since I haven’t seen him for a month. Kept my hp off all the way, if I kept it on, I will definitely sms you. I really wanted to come over to your place to hang around, to watch friends, to watch tv with you on this Sunday afternoon. Is there no turning back for you? Everytime I on my Internet explorer, I so so wanna log on to singtel.com, to sms you. Borrowed some books from the library, but I utterly have no mood to read anything. So many questions without any answers from you. I have everything I need when I am loving you. Now, everything is taken away from me. Maybe I should start a blog, instead of writing on MS word daily. There will be instances I just stare into space and just wonder, why was I so childish to think that my nightmare was over. It doesn’t help that my cute little bolster is from you. Been tearing these 2 nights when I hug him.
Was at aunt's place eating prawns this evening. Mum mentioned that u like to eat prawn head. Had this sudden urge to cry. In the car, Dad asked me to ask you out for lunch next weekend at RTC. I kept quiet. It really really is very hurting. I know I should tell them the truth, but I cant, coz i know one day, if you ever come back to me, I will be there.
Saw you on msn the whole of this evening, i so wanted to msg you, but i didnt dare. I dont want to appear as a pest to you. It was really veri veri painful to fight back the urge, to call you, msn you, msg you. All i can do is to hug your bolster and cry. Never have i thought you will decide to give me up.
U asked me how did i do it, how did i manage to not call you for 2 days. I told ya i will alwaes listen to you and i will keep my promise, maybe its becoz i have nv listened to you in the past, thats why u chose to leave me. Its really hard not to call you, its really painful. But i know that i have to grow up, i have to listen to you. When will this nightmare be over?
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